Reset

 It has been a long time since I last published an article here on my blog. A lot of crazy things happened! It has been a roller coaster ride for the past few years. I've been meaning to post something here but couldn't think of a topic for my comeback into making a blog. But here I am, sitting on my couch, just typing whatever comes into my mind before I forget everything.

The last post that I made was about our trip to Siargao. Wow, 4 years have passed just like that. Indeed time flies so fast. So here's my life update for the past 4 years I've been MIA.

Last January 2020 was so crazy. When we came back from the Philippines, I had my worst breakdown that year that led me to overdosing. I really wanted to end my life during that time because I didn't know my reason to live anymore. I was crying to God why it didn't happen. To please give me a good reason to keep going in life, a few days after He answered. I took a pregnancy test and I found out that I was pregnant! I cried and cried while talking to Him that now I know why He didn't let me die. He gave me a strong reason why I should keep living. He gave me my heart's desire. The only thing that I've been praying for. My heart was so full. Receiving this beautiful gift made me stronger not to just give up on life. It really is true that everything will work out in God's perfect timing.

I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl last September 2020. It was hard especially it was during Covid-19 but everything's worth it the moment I heard her first cry and held her in my arms. That's when I understood what most moms are saying. The unconditional love for this tiny human being is just everything. 

She is now 40 months old. A very lively, kind, loving, talented, and wonderful kid. I literally couldn't ask for more. She is now in a daycare here in Japan. Oh If only I could make the time stop for a little while just to keep her this little. Just to keep her all for me. Just to be my little baby.

As you all know, I've been living in Yamanashi Prefecture since coming here in Japan but just recently I decided to move to Kanagawa Prefecture to change our environment and to open more opportunities for me and my kid. It is a tough decision to make especially I have already built a life in Yamanashi and moving here is a brand new life for the two of us. We were back to zero. It's hard because my family and my long time friends are all in Yamanashi but little by little I have adjusted to the life that we have in here. I have made some friends already and I am just thankful for them because they treat my daughter so nice as if she's their own.

I will do my best to regularly update my blog from now on. Travel or just random blogs, whatever comes into my mind. Slowly but surely, I will do my best to help myself get back into my old hobbies again like this and photography. So... wish me luck!

If you have any suggestions, feel free to comment down or send me a private message anytime! I'd be happy to hear from y'all!

Xoxo,

Naisha!